Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Ups and downs

Life is a rollercoaster. Full of ups and downs. Many things had happened since my last post that I do not know where to begin. Some joyful events, some not so joyful events.

Work wise: Everything seems smooth one day and it can go haywired another day. It's really tough for me. A newbie and have to take so much responsibilities. Maybe I'm not prepared for this role yet. Maybe I need more time. But I can't give up half way. I need to fight back...That's what I have been telling myself everyday. Late nights and early mornings is a norm nowadays. I do not know how long I can take this but I will give my best.

Love life: It's really tough to let him go again today. These few months, I am used to having someone beside me everytime, someone to be my punchbag, someone to finish my food when I can't, someone to go out with every weekend and then have to let him go today and not seeing him for another year. It has been a wonderful 3 months. I hold back my tears today when he left because I know he doesn't want to see me cry. Now, life is back to being without him. It's good to have a long distance relationship as it is really a test on how strong it is but it has been 3 years. It's getting harder and harder to let him go each time.

With CNY and V-day over, I foresee myself busy with work till the end of the year. No more taking leave as I have caused my team to be so stressed today. Too much thing to do. Hopefully they understand.

So, till the next post, my warmest regards to all.